Anonymous: I hope you find reason in what has happened. Even though I don't know you, I'm so sorry and I care. Stay strong xx 

thank you, I’ll never find a reason, but hopefully will find acceptance at some point down the line

Today was our first day back at school since everyone found out that we lost you. Everyone knew how close we were. It was terrible being able to feel the sympathetic stares from everyone in each class, and walking down the hallways. At lunch it just wasn’t the same not having you at the lunch table. There’s always going to be that silence in conversation that I know you would have filled if you were still here.

Does it make me a bad person that during the entirety of your funeral, all I could think of was how much you would’ve hated it. Nothing was you at that service. Does it make me selfish that I wanted to get up and scream that I should be sitting up in the front row with the family? God, I wish they showed some pictures of us together. All of us. Nobody knew you the way we did. I wish we had some part In your life celebration. I hope you’re reading this over my shoulder.



if your boyfriend is your best friend, you’re doing it right.

if your boyfriend is your only friend, you’re doing it wrong.


(via shittycompany)

it’s no secret that I’m hurting from you not being here anymore, and there’s no denying that I won’t be able to not think about you every day for the rest of my life. I’m not good with words, but if I had the chance to bring you back to life I think I would find words to tell you that I never thought I knew. It’s only been a week since you’ve been gone, and it’s been the hardest time of my life. I can’t imagine not being able to ever talk to you again, but sadly it’s reality. I just want to hear one of your jokes and I come back with a sarcastic comeback, like it used to be. It has only been a week since we were all hanging out, happy together, but oh my god it seems like months ago. I guess that’s what happens when you experience true loss. I wish you didn’t have to leave this world so early, because my selfishness comes into place and I just want you to be a friend in my life forever. It’s true when they say expect the unexpected because, God, I never did expect this to happen to us. I never expected to wake up and realize that I would never hear your voice again. Now all I have to hang on to is imagining you laughing and calling me a loser up in heaven, because I’m typing a sappy post about you on the Internet.